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girasoles sometimes soogyu real? i guess so. this will be very short ^_^
i have no fucking clue wtf those two are up to these days? it seems like after their little fight on new years they got a lot closer but i'm also very [squints] about it. me @ me it's not that deep my guy just enjoy it while it lasts. also me @ me what is HYBE planning. they're not going to be main cp anytime soon. whatever!
general canon refs
> they posted pics of the new dorm on april 30th, so i'm assuming they moved in either a few weeks / at least a week earlier.
> subin DID ask bg for his chapstick back in that vlive, i just had him never give it back <3 indirect-kiss or however that goes.
> subin has mentioned before that beomgyu sleeps with windows open & has left them like that during colder weather or rain BUT i don't remember where? hm.
> beomgyu_mentions_to_his_friends_or_parents_he_likes_subins_face.mp4
> txt it's skin cf - i think they also did work with saem, but it was back in 2019? 2020 was it's skin, in september, august i think? i had it bookmarked... but let it go after i finished writing... tfw u forget u have to DREAMWIDTH POST. anyway i'll come back to this soon. i hope.
> subin refs: calling beomgyu pretty when he's asleep / "how about me?" / pretty eyes nose lips / trying out different things these days: mentioned on vlive! how hes looking for Talents. Playing the kazoo (?) that thingy. did imitations with cbg on his chicken vlive, baking (we all saw the proof), pictures (we all saw that) / when he looks down at bgs hands and smiles.
> the beomgyu refs are just "my lovely soobin hyung" & him saying "we don't fit well together" @ soobin (this was in the txt jp moa kit, which i cant find videos on yt & there are small compilations on twitter but i can't find them... T__T) & generally being nostalgicfucker01 whenever he has the chance. bringing up the past / missing familiarity (what he's made a home of).
> kai strongest member of txt agenda, carrying subin out of the living room
writing process
> literally when subin said the thing i was like "someone should write pwp to this" to which tayua said "sounds like a job for u" & when i told emara, they said the same thing. i said "no" like an idiot and created the draft on ao3 the following day. because thats just how i live apparently,
> initially it was named 'any eyes other than mine' WHICH IS LIKE. it sounds v .... angsty. but then i found this poem & i was like... well then! that's it.
> this was supposed to be JUST PORN. then i was like wjhat if,, relationship shtudy <3
> written in the span of this month in little snippets & pieces because a. main wip wasn't working & b. i had no time for it T___T
> its 90% making out because i was being a bitch about Not Having Soogyu Kissing Content to emara in dms (LIKE I ALWAYS AM) so this was the result.
> beomgyu slips / slips / falls > pulls soobin down with him
> im literally a taejunkaist i cant leave them alone when i write soupbam. something has to be going on with them T___T
> i think the hardest part about this was keeping the timeline as close to 'reality' as possible. + i did NOT think i was going to write canon comp fic for these 2 because ive tried before and theres a lot of.... hm. a lot of little things about them that can be - not hard to swallow but difficult to explain. do i think this is them? not 100%, no, but its the closest i'll get to them i think? the main thing missing here is them showing the worst of themselves to each other & being like "well that sure happened. picking up the pieces now." (soobin voice so comfortable that i am mean to you & for that i am sorry)
> i'm hoping i can return to main wip / do some stuff for director's cut & jukebox / do birthfics this month, since ill be back home & offline for most of it ^___^
> i want to get better at writing sex so bad. SO BAD!!!
> speaking of, i'm not sure what this is in terms of 'getting better / getting worse'. this is def new, since i haven't done idolsverse cc before, but just because it's new doesn't mean it's fitting for me / how i write. i don't know :thinking: will have to reflect on this.
> DO I LIKE IT? i'm pretty neutral about it actually but that doesn't surprise me??? i AM pretty neutral about most of my writing, so.
> favorite parts? particularly these & this
> favorite scenes: beomgyu waking up after first pics, sharing bed opening, fans liked the pictures. first kiss!
> trinibingo / wheel . obsessed with how the wheel NEVER FUCKEN MISSES.
that's it. at least it's finally out of my system ^___^
i have no fucking clue wtf those two are up to these days? it seems like after their little fight on new years they got a lot closer but i'm also very [squints] about it. me @ me it's not that deep my guy just enjoy it while it lasts. also me @ me what is HYBE planning. they're not going to be main cp anytime soon. whatever!
general canon refs
> they posted pics of the new dorm on april 30th, so i'm assuming they moved in either a few weeks / at least a week earlier.
> subin DID ask bg for his chapstick back in that vlive, i just had him never give it back <3 indirect-kiss or however that goes.
> subin has mentioned before that beomgyu sleeps with windows open & has left them like that during colder weather or rain BUT i don't remember where? hm.
> beomgyu_mentions_to_his_friends_or_parents_he_likes_subins_face.mp4
> txt it's skin cf - i think they also did work with saem, but it was back in 2019? 2020 was it's skin, in september, august i think? i had it bookmarked... but let it go after i finished writing... tfw u forget u have to DREAMWIDTH POST. anyway i'll come back to this soon. i hope.
> subin refs: calling beomgyu pretty when he's asleep / "how about me?" / pretty eyes nose lips / trying out different things these days: mentioned on vlive! how hes looking for Talents. Playing the kazoo (?) that thingy. did imitations with cbg on his chicken vlive, baking (we all saw the proof), pictures (we all saw that) / when he looks down at bgs hands and smiles.
> the beomgyu refs are just "my lovely soobin hyung" & him saying "we don't fit well together" @ soobin (this was in the txt jp moa kit, which i cant find videos on yt & there are small compilations on twitter but i can't find them... T__T) & generally being nostalgicfucker01 whenever he has the chance. bringing up the past / missing familiarity (what he's made a home of).
> kai strongest member of txt agenda, carrying subin out of the living room
writing process
> literally when subin said the thing i was like "someone should write pwp to this" to which tayua said "sounds like a job for u" & when i told emara, they said the same thing. i said "no" like an idiot and created the draft on ao3 the following day. because thats just how i live apparently,
> initially it was named 'any eyes other than mine' WHICH IS LIKE. it sounds v .... angsty. but then i found this poem & i was like... well then! that's it.
> this was supposed to be JUST PORN. then i was like wjhat if,, relationship shtudy <3
> written in the span of this month in little snippets & pieces because a. main wip wasn't working & b. i had no time for it T___T
> its 90% making out because i was being a bitch about Not Having Soogyu Kissing Content to emara in dms (LIKE I ALWAYS AM) so this was the result.
> beomgyu slips / slips / falls > pulls soobin down with him
> im literally a taejunkaist i cant leave them alone when i write soupbam. something has to be going on with them T___T
> i think the hardest part about this was keeping the timeline as close to 'reality' as possible. + i did NOT think i was going to write canon comp fic for these 2 because ive tried before and theres a lot of.... hm. a lot of little things about them that can be - not hard to swallow but difficult to explain. do i think this is them? not 100%, no, but its the closest i'll get to them i think? the main thing missing here is them showing the worst of themselves to each other & being like "well that sure happened. picking up the pieces now." (soobin voice so comfortable that i am mean to you & for that i am sorry)
> i'm hoping i can return to main wip / do some stuff for director's cut & jukebox / do birthfics this month, since ill be back home & offline for most of it ^___^
> i want to get better at writing sex so bad. SO BAD!!!
> speaking of, i'm not sure what this is in terms of 'getting better / getting worse'. this is def new, since i haven't done idolsverse cc before, but just because it's new doesn't mean it's fitting for me / how i write. i don't know :thinking: will have to reflect on this.
> DO I LIKE IT? i'm pretty neutral about it actually but that doesn't surprise me??? i AM pretty neutral about most of my writing, so.
> favorite parts? particularly these & this
> favorite scenes: beomgyu waking up after first pics, sharing bed opening, fans liked the pictures. first kiss!
> trinibingo / wheel . obsessed with how the wheel NEVER FUCKEN MISSES.
that's it. at least it's finally out of my system ^___^
